moment of inspiration

Si tal vez pudieras comprender...
Que ya no se ni como expresar me bien.
Por donde empezar ni mucho menos cuando terminar.
Que aunque piense de mas o piense de menos... Pienso.

Pienso en lo que es, no lo es, pudo ser y lo que nunca sera.
Me rio de nervio. Lloro de tristeza, me trago las lagrimas por orgullo. Y callo al no saber.

Lo siento no puedo quererte si no estas cerca de mi, no puedo amar la idea de ti.

his name

His name
His name I'm afraid I can not say as by just thinking of it, I begin to blush
His name I can not tell as it fill me with feelings I didn't even know were possible
Saying it would not just make my face rosey but lips would inevitably break into a smile
My eyes would fill up with a shine and my heart will instantly begin to race.
I can not tell you much of him just that there seems to be an infinite amount of happiness in me and a giddyness that I have yet to be able to explain.


I can not say his name, I can not bare the pain of just thinking of a day where he will not be 
Be by my side and drive me insane
An insanity that only careless lovers can understand and even then can't quite comprehend. 
I dare not pretend there can be a day where my forever and ever can turn into a happily ever after
The blood in my veins just by the thought begins to rush 
Oh, what a rush would that be.... an infinite of possibilities of what can and not be
Yet his name I will not reveal.