it kills me...

it kills me...
it kills me not hearing that ring, not feeling that vibration or seeing that smiley face
Not knowing what's running through your mind, not having any peace of mind.
If I can only read your mind, know what it hides.... would I still love you the same? or would something change?
Did something change within the last few hours?
I feel like I'm losing my mind and yet I'm wondering about yours.
Give me a hint, a clue just set me on the right path.
I'll conform with not knowing it all, fine I'll just know enough but tell me what is enough?
It isn't enough knowing and then not knowing.
Wondering and feeling a full certainty of utter belonging.
Can it please stop being temporary? Can we move past temporary and go on to a permanence?
I can't imagine my life without you nor would I want it without you.
You see, you have turned into the best part of it and of me.
Nothing.
No reply, no answer... What am I to do with so many lingering questions and no reply.